kk so this is the deal. ive know him since elementary and just this year he came out and said he was gay. now we are like really close friends-we absolutely loved being around each other and he's the most thoughtful sweetheart ever to me. [on my b-day he custom made me a card and written it himself-even a poem in it just 4 me. i had startd to reallly love him just alittle while b4 he came out.for awhile i didnt even wanna except that he was gay and was convinced that maybe if i did just the right things...well yeah .not to be stereotypical but he got gayer...but in an annoying way. like he was trying to be like super gay man so much that he almost seemed like a gay poser. after awhile ive given up hurting myself-i know i was getting too attached and that would only hurt me worse since im graduating this year and im trying really hardd to wean myself from him by trying to convince myself why it wouldnt work and distancing myself[just alittle]from him. thats the hardest part cuz it ends up makin me even more possesive than b4. i get mad at him over everything. [i dont tell him tho-just get really quiet and moody.] i know im scarin him off but i dont want to but i do want to and agh....its a mess-im not sure whos breakin my heart more, me or him.
sorry this was so long
