troubled

So yeh. I'm highly depressed. I've been diagnosed with depression... but for a while, I was doing better about it. Now I'm just falling apart, it's all going back to the way it was.

I guess I just feel like... i dunno... no one really understands how I feel. I don't fit in anywhere.... cause like... I've never even been to highschool in my life, just homeschooled mostly (& taken a few classes at collages). So I'm pretty much looked down on by everyone, and I have a really hard time talking to people, especially when I know they're just gonna think I'm a freak. that's why I've given up on people, for the most part.

I only have two best friends, and even they don't really help when it comes to my problems. I never even see them anymore.

I'm not going anywhere in life....

And today, I got all "hissy" and I cried and screamed and kicked the walls. My mom and dad keep telling me to stop acting like a 4 yr old. Sometimes I have a really strong urge to just kill myself, just to make a statement... cause no one takes me seriously. I know so many people have it SO MUCH worse than me, everyone constantly reminds me of this, but that still doesn't help me from feeling like shit. my heart hurts, my head hurts, everything on me hurts... no one even cares. I try to tell people I know, but it's like talking to a brick wall.

I'm figuring that most kids my age don't do stuff like that... I dunno what's wrong with me, really.

Oh yeah, also, I'm type 1 diabetic... and I haven't been taking care of myself right. So my parents have been making me go to the docters, all the time, I've been three times in this past week. And the docters (all three of them) treat me like I'm stupid, or weird, or a freak or something.. and my one male docter always picks on me/makes fun of me. I want to punch him in the face. It's bad enough everyone else does it to me... and now I have to give myself a shot and count how many carbs are in every f*cking thing I eat. It's really stressing me out.

It's okay if no one replies to this. I don't even fit in here, lol... someone can lock this if they want. I don't care. I'm just sick of life and wanted to vent. Byeh.

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Good for you that you told your story. It's kinda the way how I landed here too.

*hug*

I know how you feel , when nobody understands you and looks down upon you ,and u ask for help from your m8s but they don't help you ."hugs"

trust me if you take your insulin er wutever every day the headaches will stop and you will start feeling better

and if your depressed and have been for awhile, try anti depressants.. they are awesome

flowmo wrote: trust me if you take your insulin er wutever every day the headaches will stop and you will start feeling better

and if your depressed and have been for awhile, try anti depressants.. they are awesome

hey flowmo!!! do you wanna make her an anti depressant addicted please!!!!... LOL, Kisses !!!!!!


Kisa .. dont give up!!!! you are a cool girl!!! if you cant found love in there you can found it in here...!!!1 My best wishes!!!!!!