I don't care if this is cheesey or stupid...it needs to be said. (For my sake.)

This guy is everything I've always wanted, I told him I liked him. He said he was fine with that, but didn't give me an answer back. We haven't talked about it since. When I'm around him...it's like a high. When I'm not I get depressed, then I get over it. But if he just gives me one look it happens all over again.

I'm sick and tired of this shit happening to me! It needs to stop. If anything like this has happen to you PLEASE post something and tell me about it. How it ended and shit like that. Also...if there's a way for this stuff to STOP, would you mind telling me how??? I can't live like this anymore. I'm getting scared of myself. (If that makes any sense.)

this has happened to me before too

i know exactly where you are coming from

and yea...it is scary...

you need to ask him why he won't give you an answer

it sounds like he's trying to make you wait for something

which doesn't help how you are feeling...

and i won't even try to tell you to stop thinking about him

i tried that and it only made me think more...

i dunno...i just think that you need to talk to him about how you feel...and ask him how he feels too

cause you never know what will happen

i hope everything turns out okay, and if you need anything please don't hesitate to message me

♥

I just had to answer you, because this is scary. Every word of your first parapraph applies to me. I actully couldn't have worded it better. What I did to make it stop?
Well, I was tired of throwing myself at him. When summer vacation came (the current summer vacation), he didn't make any apparent effort to contact me. At first, I was still in love with him. I mean, you don;t just get over it that easily. But then, after a full week or so of not talking to him at all, I stopped thinking about him. Soon, "Matthew" was just a word on every page of my last two journals. I didn't care anymore, because I was able to look back and see how horrible he made me feel, and relised that he didn't have the right. I did talk to him around a week ago, and even though it was just like we were still in school, and just like when I looked at him, I forgot all of my heart ache and tears over him, I was okay.
I'm certain that when school starts, and he reminds me of how freaking amazing me is, I'll be hopeless.
I does that help?

Will work, but risky (You can lose his friendship with this):
Ask him out (or maybe a few time), have a great time and try to kiss him afterwards...
If he kisses back, you're in, if not..................

farid wrote: Will work, but risky (You can lose his friendship with this):
Ask him out (or maybe a few time), have a great time and try to kiss him afterwards...
If he kisses back, you're in, if not..................

Okay...Number One: asking him out would be freaky. I bet I could do it though. Number Two: you might be onto something with the "lose his friendship thing" but I doubt it would happen because he's understanding that way. Number Three: great time with him...eeeeasay. And Number Four:...Kiss him!? Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!? That's a tad extreme, not my thing, and it scares the pants of me! You do realize I am ONLY 14 correct. (Sorry if that sounded mean. :S )

I guess I forgot to mention I have not had boyfriend before let alone kissed a guy. I wouldn't have the slightest clue. Though I appreciate your suggestion. I might just do that.

...wow. Your story is so sad.

Over the past month I haven't talked to Ryan at all, he's NEVER online anymore. I think it's helped me a bit not having contact with him. Not having the possibility of hanging-out, talking, sharing, dreaming. I really wonder where he's gone to. Ho he could just stop. I wonder if he's doing this on purpose. He knows how I feel, and I know he doesn't feel the same about me back.

So I'm a little confused,and a little grateful. I don't know if he's stopped talking to me for the simple reason of helping me get over him. Or...he might be dead. I don't know which.

But what I do know...everytime I'm near his house in the city, and everytime I think about him at night...at least one tear falls. And it's all becaue of him.