some poems i wrote...

obsession
to be in the state of depression
that is my minds obsession
i hate the feeling, i really do
and you hate it when i feel this way too
theres nothing you can do or say
to make the pain go away
so let me swim in my unknown sorrow
hopefully i won't feel this way tomorrow
and if i do, promise me
that you will just let me be
'cause when you try to get rid of my pain
my depression just begins to gain
i want to cut myself so bad
but i don't want you to say "the friend i had"
i love you so much i don't wanna leave
and i really really don't want you to greeve
so im sorry that im always depressed
its just my mind is so obsessed


pins on my shirt
they ask me why i have pins on my shirt
they hate how i dress, they treat me like dirt
they call me emo bitch, a slut, a whore
they keep screaming those things more and more
will they ever leave me alone?
or will i have to cut myself down to the bone?
they'll never kno who i am inside
because they never let me show them wat i hide
i finger them and walk away
i really shouldn't care wat the say
if they relized how much they hurt me
then maybe the would just let me be
they should just lem be how i want
and stop their immature taunt
so let me wear my pins on my shirt
and stop treating me like dirt...

suicidle panic
blackness...
i can't see anything...
then there was a white light
should i walk towards it?
i shake uncontrollably
im so scared
this isn't wat i imagined death to be
i thought it would be better than my life
i look down at my wrists
they are cut but are not bleeding...anymore...
should i have done this to myself?
maybe you would have tooken me back...
i made a stupid mistake...
should i try to get back?
i start running away from the light
then i fell and fell and fell
i screamed then everything was quiet
i felt tears running down my face
i heard someone crying
i opened my eyes
you were there
beside me, holding my hand
then you kissed me and held me tight
i love you
and i now i kno you love me...

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i luv them!

YAY my obsession one is getting published into a book!! XD im so excited!