OK... so, a few months ago I was drunk, and did some things I really should NOT have done. I used to do a few, low class drugs and shit., so I thought "hey, it's just powder" and snorted it. Gah. The next day, I found some more of the stuff in my room (it was probably one of my friends stash) and decided to do it again. And NOW, it seems that I'm upping my lines nearly every day. Of course, the sensible thing to do is get professional help, but my experience with doctors and therapists are pretty bad, and then there's the fact that my family will practically disown me and so will most of my friends. What the fuck am I gonna do, people???

Gingerbread Coffin wrote: OK... so, a few months ago I was drunk, and did some things I really should NOT have done. I used to do a few, low class drugs and shit., so I thought "hey, it's just powder" and snorted it. Gah. The next day, I found some more of the stuff in my room (it was probably one of my friends stash) and decided to do it again. And NOW, it seems that I'm upping my lines nearly every day. Of course, the sensible thing to do is get professional help, but my experience with doctors and therapists are pretty bad, and then there's the fact that my family will practically disown me and so will most of my friends. What the fuck am I gonna do, people???

Sorry, one thing first: Are you really 14?

Yes, I'm fourteen. If you don't think I'm being serious about this, then I can tell you that I am being serious. Very serious.

Gingerbread Coffin wrote: Yes, I'm fourteen. If you don't think I'm being serious about this, then I can tell you that I am being serious. Very serious.

Ouch. That's a dilly of a pickle. Sorry to hear that.

First off, I'll give you the response I'm encouraging everyone to give when confronted with serious problems.

Don't rely on the internet (especially forums) for good advice.

There's loads of people who don't know what the hell they're talking about, so take any advice given to you with a massive dose of salt. (Including mine.) I think that seeking advice in real life is safer than on the internet. But I doubt anyone will listen to me, so here goes...

I take it that you think you've a problem with the stuff? And I'm assuming from the description that you're primarily taking cocaine?

Yes, it's cocaine. And believe me, I've tried looking for help in real life. It's just really embarassing to have someone look at you like you're a total failure in life.

Gingerbread Coffin wrote: Yes, it's cocaine. And believe me, I've tried looking for help in real life. It's just really embarassing to have someone look at you like you're a total failure in life.

Ok, I understand that. The thing is, if you can't stop yourself, I don't think that the internet will really be able to help. If you're addicted you need a real-life friend to help you through.

So, basically, if you're addicted and can't get off the stuff yourself, you've two options:

1) Get help to get off it.
2) Continue as you are indefinately.

Agree with me so far?

Yes, I agree. But if I did tell a friend, they would murder me.

Gingerbread Coffin wrote: Yes, I agree. But if I did tell a friend, they would murder me.

How do you know that? I think that you'd have to be ready to get a bit of a tongue lashing, but they should probably come through for you in the end, if they are a friend. But, now that I think of it, an adult would probably have a better idea of what's going on and how to deal with it. Parents would probably be the best bet, but I doubt that's an option somehow.

Out of interest, how much are you taking a week, and how is it interfering in your daily life?

As a preface, IANAL, IANAMD, IANAP, and I am not any other sort of professional.

I know that you said that your parents would disown you. I think you might be exaggerating just a tiny little bit there. I think your parents might be disappointed with what you've done. I think your parents might be scared or worried about you, and this might lead them to be extremely critical of your decisions. I think your parents might be upset and incapable of understanding why you use cocaine. And I think you'll probably get in a lot of trouble.

But, more than likely, your parents do love you. Tell them. You'd be surprised about how understanding they can actually be. Turns out, they were kids once too.

curiousgeorge wrote:

Gingerbread Coffin wrote: Yes, I agree. But if I did tell a friend, they would murder me.

How do you know that? I think that you'd have to be ready to get a bit of a tongue lashing, but they should probably come through for you in the end, if they are a friend. But, now that I think of it, an adult would probably have a better idea of what's going on and how to deal with it. Parents would probably be the best bet, but I doubt that's an option somehow.

Out of interest, how much are you taking a week, and how is it interfering in your daily life?

Well, just a few lines of it a day really. And it makes me barely able to eat, I can't sleep properly, and I can't play any of my music anymore, and I'm being a complete bitch to everyone. I don't have to worry about school though, since I've already been expelled, which I suppose is a good thing.
And as for my parents loving me, I suppose they do, it's just they don't like me very much. And they probably wouldn't disown me, but they would send me away somewhere...

All things considered, would they be wrong in doing so?

lostandconfused wrote: All things considered, would they be wrong in doing so?

No, they wouldn't be wrong in doing it, but I still wouldn't want to go.

Gingerbread Coffin wrote: Well, just a few lines of it a day really.

This is a few lines too much.

Gingerbread Coffin wrote: And it makes me barely able to eat, I can't sleep properly, and I can't play any of my music anymore, and I'm being a complete bitch to everyone.

You seem to have noticed some of the negative effects. Be glad you have yet to experience the others, and seek professional help so you never have to. I can guarantee you that what you've experienced so far is nothing compared to what you will, inevitable, do if you keep going down this road.

Gingerbread Coffin wrote: I don't have to worry about school though, since I've already been expelled, which I suppose is a good thing.

It's a very bad thing. There's nothing good about not getting proper education.

Gingerbread Coffin wrote: but they would send me away somewhere...

If being sent away or continuing to walk down this extremely destructive road are the options you are facing, the answer should be clear: getting sent away for some while whilst you recover is better. Without a doubt. Although this is not the best solution (staying home and getting support from everyone is obviously the best, and I wish this is possible for you), it's still better.

The consequences of getting addicted to heroin, especially at your age, are absolutely devastating.

Gingerbread Coffin wrote:

lostandconfused wrote: All things considered, would they be wrong in doing so?

No, they wouldn't be wrong in doing it, but I still wouldn't want to go.

Talk to your parents. You need help.

Yep, this site is definitely one big contest on who is the most fucked up.
Ummm... Poor you?