scared

I feel so strange lately, like
some days I am amazing but then when the feeling of accompishment and praise fades it all shivels down to feelings of guilt remorse loss emptiness and almot a sort of worthlessness.

One minute I'm on top of the world and the next when I take a minute to think
I just want to crawl into a hole forever but even then I feel such guilt
What reaon do I have?
There are SO MANY people who have it a thousandtimes worse then I do and I sould b ashamed for feeling so bad over nothing and it just goes on and on in a vicious circle.

I never noticed how fragile my world has become but its only like this half of the time
and that scares me
it scares me to know my world could crumble any second
and it scares me to think I might not be able to fix it.

I am happy don't get me wrong
but the last time I"ve been truly blissful has been so long ago....
and I feel like a spoiled brat for saying that I really do
so you please don't tell me so

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Don't get pent up about how others may have it worse off.

The feelings that you're having are happening to you and they're real.

Talk to someone about it and by someone I mean not someone on here. Find a friend, family member or someone close to you to confide in. Perhaps seek professional help.

Hey

That is great advice that Brawneyman gave you.


What you are feeling is real and it does not matter who is better or worse off.

You did the right thing by talking about it.
We are almost the same age and I can tell you from my own experiance that some of what you feel is normal. It's part of being our age and of being emotional.

Please don't feel afraid just understand that you are more normal than you think.

Were here if you need us.

Chris

I know what you mean. 2 years ago i had the same feelings. but i wasnt able to vocalize them becuz i barely understood what was going on. but im glad you can talk about it. all those unsaid feelings after 2 years made me attempt suicide when something pushed me over the edge. When you feel bad just tell someone you feel comfortable talking to. when things are left unsaid then they stay inside you and sometimes cloud ur judgment. even if its on a post, you should still say what u need to say. and if ur on medication, talk to your doctor about it. in my oppinion meds help.
im here too if u wanna talk

Tom wrote: IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU
I WISH YOU NEVER TOLD ME
I WAKE UP SCREAMING NOW
SO REAL THESE VOICES IN MY HEAD
SO REAL THESE VOICES IN MY HEAD
I WAKE UP SCREAMING NOW
I WISH YOU NEVER TOLD ME
I WISH I NEVER KNEW

SCARED AND LONELY
YOU WON'T BE
SCARED, YOU WON'T BE
SCARED AND LONELY
YOU WON'T BE
SCARED, YOU WON'T BE
LONELY
SCARED AND LONELY
YOU WON'T BE
SCARED, YOU WON'T BE
YOU WON'T BE
SCARED AND LONELY
YOU WON'T BE
SCARED YOU WON'T BE
LONELY

... What the fuck?

Having a healthy sense of comparison of your problems to others isn't a bad thing, but diminishing your own in the process is not good.
Did anything happen in your past to trigger bad feelings? Do you feel overly hormonal? Bad PMS? etc etc.
Maybe look into taking a Vitamin B supplement daily, it helps with the hormones.

Sounds like puberty to me.

Or signs of them being bipolar or having general anxiety disorder, or depression.

You just need to listen to The Cure, man.
They understand.

Guys even if this is a troll post let's not be so hasty to judge.

it does kinda seem like people are too hasty to udge people who post posts. it always seems like they assume others are just looking for attention. posters just need help.

Hasn't been online since the day she registered and made this single post.

Either she became an hero or moved on or stopped caring about forums.

Or she went and got help.

yeah there are endless possibilities on what happened and where she went. did u ever think that something bad could have happened?