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rockitemokid wrote: Most of the people here are closer to indie kids.

BrawnyMan wrote:

rockitemokid wrote: Most of the people here are closer to indie kids.

I can out indie all of you. I'll fuck your shit up with my non-mainstream now generally accepted/coveted style and way of life.

But fuck that shit. It's all about being as European as possible now.

zockerbube wrote: can anybody tell me a website (forum) about emo >?< the fashion and the music

ifXemosXcouldXfly wrote: okay so i bet nobody will read this but i wanted to express my feelings some place i wouldnt make anyone else hate me. why do they hate me so much? okay so i have 4 best friends and im the most emo-est of all of them cos i had a bad childhood and i dont want to talk about it anymore. so anyway, i have been emo since i was like 9. but this year is just so......much worse.
theres a popular group in my class who takes over the whole grade. and they are just so mean. to me mostly. but i hardly talk to them. i only talk to them when they ask me questions. it was mostly things like "pen?" or "GIVE ME YOUR BOOK NOW!" and other orders like that. i do what they say cos.....they're just.....scary. everybody does what they say. but this year they especially hate me. i dont know why..... they pick on me and my close-est best friend,lets call her carmen. they write fake love notes to carmen and pretend its some guy. and carmen is freaking out but we cant fight back cos we're just.....people. me and my group are classified as the moderate popularity emo group. we normally hang out with the nice nerds so i guess you could call us low in the popularity level. anyway, the popular groups just hate me. they look at me with the stink eye. and one time when i was discussing a math question with carmen when suddently i felt like something hit my head. and i looked behind and saw a letter all crushed up. i opened it with carmen and it wrote something like "you king kong! sum1 accually likes you! NOT" and it was very depressing.....and so i told my 4 best friends and they cheered me up especially this girl, lets call her veronica. she was so nice and funny i liked her ALOT.
one morning i met carmen and we talked,
"so can i borrow your english book pwease?"
"sure. here you go"
"thanks! your the best!"
then we returned to our seats. and it was class as usual. the next day was P.E. and i was the person voted to be in charge of the P.E sessions in my class. you would think that i was kinda popular to be voted but i think its a partical joke cos the person whos in charge of P.E classes always has to bring the balls back by themselves and they normally get laughed at. so anyway, i was watching veronica and the others playing. i didnt want to join them so i sat down close to them and just watched them.
"HEY!!!!!"
"huh?" *turns around* "ahh...yeah?"
"GO GET ME A BALL NOW"
"im sorry i...."
"YEAH! WHERES THE BALLS? GO GET IT QUICKLY!!!"
"umm....i cant because the door is...."
"YEAH! YOUR NOT DOING YOUR JOB RIGHT"
farrah, suhaila and nicole were yelling at me.... it was
so i went to go talk to teacher and i came back i was so scared. they watched me as i walked to them. i dont like making eye contact so i looked down...
"WELL? WHERE IS IT?"
"ummm....sorry...the store is closed and both teachers with the key are not in school today so we cant play with the balls today. sorry..."
"UGH! WHATEVER!" "bitch"
so that was normal. then when i came back to class to change back into my school uniform. it wasnt in my bag.
"but i rmb-ed putting it in"
"i saw you put it in"
"but its not here...."
"go change into your nurse uniform first. ill go search"
"okay...."
i was silently talking to carmen in the toilet. all the popular kids where eye-ing me....
when i came out they were laughing at me. yeah. i looked weird. i ran out without fixing my hair.
"did you find it?"
"no..."
"nevermind lets go...."
when i returned to class my other best friend suggested we go check again. so we did. and it was stuffed to the side and covered in dust like someone stepped on it alot.....i wasnt sad. i was happy. and thankfull they didnt throw it in the toilet. i picked it up and returned to class. they were all laughing....
i wanted to cry. "dont worry its okay. they're all bitches anyway" veronica says. "thanks. i can always trust you" i said. "of course you can!" she says.
"umm......michelle?"
"yeah"
"i want to tell you something..."
"yeah. what is it?"
"you know....veronica....."
"yeah. why? is she okay? did she get hurt? whats up???"
"i just felt that i had to tell you this but....she umm...."
"yeah? what?"
"she hates you"
"what.....do you mean?"
"remember the english book you borrowed her. the one we're gonna need for the exam?"
"yeah.....i borrowed it to her..."
"its in my house now. she ordered me to throw it so it would trouble you and your exam marks"
"why? would she.....seriously?"
"yes"
i believe karma is real but....if what goes around comes around then what did i do?