Writings by HxC FiALURE

shadowslight wrote: ...this is rather sad, .. beautifully written,..it brought a tear to my eye...no joke thats brilliant work

Complicated
5-16-09

I hate you for what you did to him
You hurt him
Shoved him around,
Traded him for another
He was nothing but nice
But you played him
And you should know it hurt
Liar, you stole his love
You don’t deserve it
The roles should be reversed
A sweet guy left in pieces
A little tramp having it all
It’s just not right
You smile at his expense
I’ll just catch his tears
You never should’ve made him care
It was all pretend
Your sick little game left someone hurt
How does it feel?
Knowing that you killed a heart
I hope it hurts you
I hope life screws you over
For once, the tables will turn
You don’t deserve life
What you did was low
I wish I could hurt you back
He’s too sweet to even feel anger
He’ll just be shattered
And you stomp on the pieces
I hate you with everything I have
No one can treat my friends that way
I hope life shits on you
And girl, you better watch out
Cos I’m not afraid to cause harm
Protect all that you care for
Protect yourself, cos that’s all
I’d only be happy to hurt you
You should think before you steal a heart
I’ll never let it happen again

And you,
I hate you for what you’re trying to do to him
You trampy little thief
Can’t I have the guy just once?
Seventeen years and it’s never been me
I still don’t understand why it is
And you’re trying to take it all away
You call me a slut,
But look at yourself
You’re the one who jumps on anything with a cock
How selfish are you?
You say you’re in love
But you must have more than one
It’s not fair to me at all
All I did was care
And you gave me shit
Well guess what? I’m jealous
I see how you’re better
I see the way you try
Fuck off you petty bitch
For once in my life, let it be me
Let me be happy
You don’t need all the guys in the world
You already have one
I’m finally liked
Get the fuck over it
Get over yourself
Leave me the hell alone
I can’t deal with you
I can’t take knowing who he’d choose
So take yourself out of the running
I’m done trying to compete

cutiepiex0x0 wrote: I really liked "Mutiled Self-Death"
Keep up the good work, love.

SchizophrenicEmoSuicide wrote: wow your writting is amazing. its deep and full of emotions and feelings. i like them ^^ very nice. keep writting. you really do have a talent.

shadowslight wrote: that last one...is just wow...

I wish i could write something like that...really i'm impressed (:

If Only I Could Love
5-18-09 and 5-19-09

I don’t know how to sacrifice
My happiness for you
I’ll do my best not to hurt you
But I have emotions too
I know that you like me
But do you like her too?
Please just tell me
Cos I can’t fucking see
Thank you for your kind words
They mean a lot to me
I wish I was as kind as you
Or as kind as I need to be
I shall try hard, my dear
Hurting you is something I fear
I long to make you happy
Trust me when I say I’ll try
Even if it makes me cry,
I’ll do my best to be kind
You mean so much to me
Whether as a friend or more
And if ever I’m like them,
That shall be the day I die
Thank you so much for being here
And thank you for your time
You’ve been like my depression cure
I wish I meant that much
I don’t have much more else to say
Other than that I’m here to stay
As long as you want me around
And if not, I won’t make a sound
Please just always be happy
I hate to see you hurt
I’ll do what I can to keep it that way
Because you deserve so much
<3

HxC FiALURE wrote:

Thank you Shadow, that's very kind of you (:

You write much better than I, though.

shadowslight wrote:

HxC FiALURE wrote:

Thank you Shadow, that's very kind of you (:

You write much better than I, though.

you write every bit as good as me...if not better, that last one was indescribably beautiful, heartfelt, just ...amazing ^.^ it really warms the heart

You have great skills

My Reason
5-17-09 and 5-20-09last five lines written 5-20-09, center caps section edited 5-20-09, the rest is 5-17-09

I realise that I like you more than I should
I know that I can never ever hurt you
It would just tear me in two
To know that I caused pain to a sweet guy
Truth be told, I think I’d rather die
So let me make this sincere promise to you
I’ll do my best to be selfless
Because I never want to hurt you

you are
............................my bright shining Star
...................the distant beating Heart
...............you keep me awake All night
..but i don’t mind, cos i Don’t wanna sleep
i didn’t realise exactly hOw unhappy
i was..but then you shoWed me happiness

And now I never want to go back
So thank you for that
Thank you for caring
And thank you for sharing
You don’t know how much it means

I’ll never be the same
I never want to go back
You showed me what life is
And I’ll accept the pain
Because now, I’ve known happiness

Drei Kleine Wörter
5-18-09 and 5-20-09the first part was written on 5-18, the rest on 5-20

The words I want to say to you,
I just can’t make them come out
I’ve seen the way you talk to me
And I want to compete
You are so incredibly sweet
I just fear saying what’s on my mind
I’m scared I’ll screw it up
This is something I cannot ruin
And I know I’ll say too much
I also fear something I cannot say
Something I’m incapable of
Please know I want it to be true
But I guess I can’t let go

At times, I’m just confused
Really, all I know is that
I’m happy when I’m around you
But I’d gladly give that up if you needed me to
If you ever changed your mind,
I’d keep my sadness inside
Anything to keep you happy
As long as you never get hurt
I shall be alright

To me, this makes no sense
I’m never this selfless
But it would kill me inside
If I knew I hurt you
I’ll do anything not to
No matter what sacrifice that may include
I’d give up everything for you
As long as you’re happy, I am too

I have these words
They’re inside my head
They’re inside my heart
I never thought they could be true
But I know that they are
I know how I feel about you