every fiber in my body says hate him

every fiber in my body says hate him

by justbreathing on 08-24-2008 12:54 am

i thought that we were just falling apart...that he just couldn't take me anymore
like i was to much "involved" in our relationship.he made me feel like i was in his way.
Everything i said he turned it into a putdown...he was breaking me and i still wanted
him cause i loved him...because i was in love...we weren't together because he said
we needed to take things slow...he said he loved me...so why was he hurting? and why couldn't
i just swallow my pride and just...just...whatever.
anyways i heard something from a girl i used to know she told me that my boyfriend was GAY..so
i asked him he told me no and then spoke on how jealous she is about us being a couple errr us
used to being a couple he said she's mad cause we were working on fixing ours.
then i went to go write on his facebook wall...i saw all these picture comments that he left on
another guys page...they were talking about hooking up...commenting on how cute eachother were.
i aked him about the guy and he said some girl made his facebook page and she was probably just playing
around...but i knew it was a lie because there was nothing to be done on facebook...no background no music
no anything...and i was so confused why would he lie...to me he loved me...but i guess that was a lie too.
finally the next day he told me he was bi...but in my eyes if your bi your gay you cant just kiss a guy and then go
kiss a girl...it dosent work that way not for me atleast...and i have nothing against gays or lesbians.
he told me the whole Bi thing was recent like really recent but the day after he "came out" he was n a relationship and in love with that GUY...what about me...where does that leave me?
Now i cant even trust a guy im scarde and its not fair.If your gonna be one way then be it...don't drag others down because you can't even stand strong enough to try and let the real you come out.
what do i? Nobody understands how i feel.
you asked me what was wrong and i smiled and said
nothing.
then i turned around and whispered
everything.

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RE: every fiber in my body says hate him

by PunkRockPrincess4Life on 08-24-2008 12:53 pm

Simple, you move on, you let go.
Forget about it.

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RE: every fiber in my body says hate him

by DarkLover on 08-24-2008 12:58 pm

You should move on. He was lieing to you.
&& he was hurting you. If someone hurts you more than once than leave them.

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