I love this one babyy =] <333

It's crazy how much happens in a year
My grandpa's about gone, and his death is my worst fear
Scared for tomorrow,
Everyday, I seem to be drowning deeper and deeper into sorrow
Trying my hardest, to swim to the shore
I've never in my worst nightmare, felt this feeling before
Confused as to why everything seems to fall apart
The crumbling pieces of my life, are breaking every piece of my heart
Just want to be someone else, to get out of this Hell
I just want to feel like everything will somehow end well
The problem with that, is that I know it won't
If you feel that it's your responsibility to fix me, don't
Sorrow and pain are slowly consuming every part of me
The light in this tunnel, I can't seem to see
All I can think to do now, is cry
If I tell you I'm happy, just know now, that it's a lie
The smile I keep faking is killing me inside
Inevitably, this pain, I'll no longer be able to hide
I'm done trying to make everything okay
It doesn't matter what you say
Everything in me, tells me that this breakdown will never end
My life and heart, to you, grandpa, I'd gladly lend
It's not as though I need them anymore
You're one of the people in my life, that's beyond worth dying for
Without you, I wouldn't know what to do
I'm so hurt right now, you really don't even have a clue
If only I could have a wish, granted to me, no strings attached
All of your pain and hurt, would be patched
I want more than anything, to keep you alive
This hurts me so much, I'm not sure I want to survive
As much as you used to tell me me that you felt fine, and everything will be alright,
I knew all along that something would happen, as if it were overnight
The idea of you not here with me, is more than I can bear
You've never done anything wrong, and for you to be gone, would cause my heart to tear
The love I have for you, fills my heart
And the hurt of knowing I'm losing you, is tearing it apart
You've always done all you could to hold me together
And all too soon, you'll be gone .. for ever....

I have recently been burdened with a new asfixiation
It is that my death will soon be a declaration
Not sure why I've become so obsessed
Lately, I am always so unbearably depressed
Wishing to end the pain that I feel
Not sure that anyone can help this heal
Everything I have hoped for is now gone
Innevitably, I continue to search for a new dawn
A dawn to help me through the pain
From suicide, I continue to refrain
If someone else were to end this for me, though
No remorse for them, would I show
No longer can I deal with all this sorrow I feel, day to day
Please can someone oblige, and make this go away?