I'm dead in this world of pain and death
And I know now that no one can save me
So I'll sit high on my throne and look down at you
And wipe away what you gave me

For all the gifts in this world are not worth what I've lost
I've lost something you can never replace
So I'll sit up here and wash you away
From my mind you shall be displaced

You've lost me what I had finally found
A happiness, a feeling in my soul
And now it is gone forever from me
And now you shall pay your toll

Not for a thousand pieces of gold shall I wane
And you're punishment shall be swift
No mercy will you see in my eyes
And my eyes shall next shift

I'll watch you be tortured and I'll laugh
For it is the only joyment I'll have
From this day on you are out of my life
And my vengance shall be mad

I'll slaughter the world in my reign of terror
And no one shall be able to hide
No one will get away from me now
As I watch you run and die

And I'll laugh for I'll finally be rid of you
Someone who brought me this pain
And then I'll cry for I loved you
My mind will never again be sane...

---

As I stare in the mirror, I wonder, who is this girl staring back at me.
She seems so familiar yet I can't place her face.
It is so hurt yet so empty, as if there is nothing there.
Her dead eyes stare back at me and I know who she is.
She is me, deep inside, who I always keep hidden.
The mask that I refuse to wear.
Because to show it is to be the end of me.
The end of what's not left of me.
This person deep inside is my true face.
I wear a mask of emotions everyday.
To show my true face is to say I'm dead inside.
But I refuse to lose my hope.
I want to feel again, like I haven't in so long.
I want to know the joys of the world.
But still, as I stare in the mirror, I wonder, who is this girl staring back at me.

---

Every night I lay awake for fear of It.
It that hides under my bed.
My parents say It is just my imagination.
But I've seen It's eyes.
Those firey red eyes haunt me.
And one night It comes to see me.
I'm laying there, waiting for It.
And then It appears.
I scream but no one comes.
I am under It's curse.
And that was my last night.
Whatever you're parents say,
It is real.

---

I see the light through your eyes.
Because on my own, I only see black.
Alone, I can only see the darkness of my soul.
But you've shown me the light.

I haven't seen it in so long.
Trapped in the darkness of my heart.
You've given me what no one else has.
The ability to see the light.

It no longer blinds and sears my eyes.
But it numbs my pain and gives me comfort.
In ways it is just like you.
Perfect in all ways and giving me hope....

---

In a land far away, the midnight air fills with screams.
The battle for the land rages on into a world unknown.
The once barren plains are littered with the dead.
No one is safe in this chaotic living hell.

The snow turns red as the blood seeps through.
The trees are splattered with the blood of the dead.
The hardened earth drinks the warm liquid down.
Flowers spring to live, blood makes the crops grow.

---

In the darkest hour she waits.
The moon rises above.
Her soul begins to sing.
Because she has found love.

A love no one could break.
For he is always in her dreams.
At night she sees his shadow.
Yet she begins to scream.

His face is a bloody mass.
His limbs no longer there.
His heart has been ripped out.
The stench of blood in the air.

The beast has won him over.
Her charms have caused him pain.
But no matter what they say.
Her majesty is never slain.

---

I saw the house standing alone
Remains of shattered windows shone
I went up to the house and opened the door
And screamed at what was lying on the floor

I can't explain why so much blood
But it looked as if it could start a flood
So much raw meat in so little a space
Couldn't tell which end had held the face

Blood washed up onto my shoes
I couldn't think of what I could do
So I just gaped at the horrid sight
I stayed like that until first light

Then the blood just shone so bright
It looked so fresh in the light
Red and raw and bloody and new
I still couldn't think of what I could do

So for hours I stayed and looked through the door
Looking at the sight on the floor
Then the door just slammed shut
I looked around and down and up

Nothing was there so I turned and ran
But it felt like I was running in sand
I couldn't get away from that horrible sight
I regret going because I died that night

---

In my world it's raining blood.
And death is not far away.
Swords decorate the corpses.
And no one hunts by day.

The night is filled with screams.
Of pain and despair.
As death lurks behind the corners.
And the scent of blood fills the air.

---

And once again the light turns to dark and I'm lost again. If only the light would return so i could but catch a glimpse of it's perfection...

My heart would sing and thy soul would fly with one glimpse of the light's glory. If only the light would return...

Brought back from the hell of my meaningless life I realize that the face of glory was standing right in front of me.

And then the glory that ceased my pain and fought away my nightmares is gone.

I'm alone in the dark always wondering what I could have done to make the light return. But in the end it is too late.

I fall to my death from the highest of cliffs touched by glory.

I die with a smile upon my face for I have known glory, touched glory, and died in his hands...

The hands that held me while I cried. The hands that fought away my fears. That hands that belonged to the man that loved me.

The only man that ever loved me. If only I'd have believed. I could have touched him one last time before this death.

The death that destroyed both me and him. But still I die with a smile on my face. For I have touched his glory. Him...

---

Vampire's Kiss

I walk down the hall of death.
Transparent in my demise.
Stalking in the shadows.
I watch my prey begin to run.
Trying to get away.
For the only true death.
Is to be embraced in my arms.
It's a most painful thing.
To be locked within my clutches.
Seduced by the cool attraction.
Of the Vampire's Kiss.

---

Dark red blood drips from every pore in my body.
My head lies down near the river.
This is all tha is left of what I used to be.
Just a big mess of a girl who once smiled.
A mess of a girl who once felt.
And a mess of a girl who once had something to live for.
And now this is what it's left of her.

---

Through the night I call to you.
I'm screaming your name.
If only you were hear with me.
I could once more be sane.

I miss you when you're here.
And I cry when you're not.
And after a long time.
My heart starts to rot.

Through the shadows I wander.
Through this deserted plain.
Until I find you once more.
And I can feel again.

---

I am consumed by this sadness.
It overwhelms and envelopes me.
It causes these tears that no one can see in my eyes.
No one sees because no one cares enough to look.
And I die gradually with these tears.
These tears are my only company.
Everyone stares because everyone knows.
They know what this little girl has become.
Just a shell that once held life.
That now only holds madness.
A raging madness that none can withstand.
If only this thing I see in the mirror would die.
I loathe it more than anything else.
I loathe this ugly thing I see everyday.
No matter what I do i will never be rid of it.
I wish with all that's left of my heart it would die.
But it won't leave me here alone.
Because I am all it has.
But still I wish it would die.
For this thing I see in the mirror.
This thing that I loathe so much.
This thing that causes me pain
And this thing that makes me wish for death
This thing....
Is me......

---

As this one silver tear slides from my eyes
I let go of everything I felt for you
I let go of all the happiness, sadness, madness, and emptiness you caused me
And now I am just an empty shell
This is what you have left of me
Just this dead girl that once loved life
This dead girl that once loved you
But you stole away my love
And locked it away in a tower
Never to grace your presence
You know of my love
And that is why I am dead
You killed me for fear of what we were together
And now I shall never live again
Are you happy now, my dark darling of the night
You have killed me
And I shall never be reborn....

---

She won't die.
This girl in the mirror.
I try to kill her with my gaze.
But she won't die.
I stab her with silver knives.
I pin her to the wall.
I slit her throat.
But she won't die.
I slit her wrists.
I cut her throat.
I gut her slowly.
But she won't die.
I crush her.
I run her over.
I impale her.
I stake her.
But she won't die.
And finally I realize why.
You can't kill yourself in the mirror....

---

I wish I could stop breathing
Then everything would be alright
No one would have to see me
No one would miss this ugly girl
She is all that is left of me
And I wish her away
I wish her ill
I wish her dead
If only she would leave me
Then I could die
And everything would be okay
No one would mourn me
No one would miss me
They would celebrate at my grave
Because they are finally rid of this thing
This ugly thing that they see and loathe
She would be gone
I would be gone
And everyone would be happier....

---

I scream and call your name
But your bright light is ever fading
Soon I can no longer see the radiant glow of you
And I am left alone to the darkness
I wander, ever searching for you
And yet I still can't find your light
I am alone in the darkness
And I am fading
I let myself fade into nothingless
Like the great gods of the fey
I lost everything in your fading white light
And now I am nothing
My blood red hair swirls around me
The circlet of roses at my brow
Cut into my white sidhe flesh
And my mortal body cannot take it
The blood mingles in my hair and it is the same color
It gives me streaks of darker blood when it cools
Blood tears fall from my eyes as I search for you
Black mascara stains my face
And as I search for my one true love
I fade into nothingness...

---

The dark rider and his evil horse circle us.
Slowly and carefully they take one of the group.
And they are never seen again.
But this dark rider has wronged me.
He has destroyed the one that I love.
My Darkness of so long is dead.
I weep for my loved one in another's arms.
This other man loves me too.
My Killing Frost holds me tight and whispers sweet words.
But I know they are only lies.
I love this Killing Frost.
I have loved him for as long as My Darkness.
But nothing can replace my one true king.
And now my Killing Frost shares a kiss.
But I am empty inside without the Darkness.
As I will forever more be empty.
The dark rider swallows me.
And I cease to exist...

---

Living doesn't feel the same when you're not here with me.
It feels like a wound has been reopened in my heart.
It bleeds for you, it dies for you.
And yet you don't come home for me.
You stay isolated in your world of hate.
Centered around the one thing you hate the most.
Me.

Breathing doesn't seem worth the effort when you're not here with me.
It feel like my lungs have been caught on fire.
They try to work to keep me alive but fail.
And still you don't come home for me.
You stay in your barren wasteland that is your mind.
Centered around the one thing you hate the most.
Me.

So now I die inside for you, for you never came home to me.
I am cut into pieces by my shame and regret.
I lived for you and now I die for you too.
And I know you'll never come home for me.
You stay there on your high throne and look down on me.
And centered around that throne is the pieces of my body.
The thing you hate the most.
Me.

---

For so long I was in the darkness, doomed to tragedy
One morning I woke and it was not to the dark
The soft light that filled my black stoned cave was you
I saw you standing there, as if you were light personified
I wept at your feet for I had not seen light in so long
And your beauty was almost too much to bear
You took my hand and led me out of my dark cave
And for the first time in so long, I could feel
I felt love swell up inside me like an ocean
But this ocean did not crash down upon me
It gave me such a feeling of peace that I wept
Wept for you and our love and the light I was so long without
And you smiled down at me with the face of an angel
The darkness no longer filled my cold soul
You kissed me so delicately and led me far from my cave
You took my hand and we soared about the wood
To a place where the light no longer burned my eyes
And now I lay on a bed of white marble next to you
It is where I will be for the rest of eternity
And it is all I could ever want, the glory that is you.

---

I sit there watching you as you move across the room.
You are like the fire that burns within my soul.
So beautiful, so graceful but too dangerous for me to touch.
You remind me of the nights so long ago.
When it didn't hurt to breathe and I felt not alone.
Your presence makes me smile yet I am still afraid.
Will you notice me? Or will you pass me by?
This wonderful rush of sensation overwhelms me.
The thought of being with you makes me smile.
Yet I am as terrified as I've ever been.
What would I do if I was with you and you broke me?
The thought is the scariest of all.
Will we make it or shall we be doomed?
Will I die with you or will I end up all alone?
Lost in my thoughts I barely notice you standing in front of me.
And then the thought registers in my head.
I stare up at you and have the urge to weep.
For I never thought you would notice me.
Not even a mere shadow of your glory.
The lowliest peasant compared to you, I was.
But you smiled down on me nonetheless.
With that beautiful smile what could I do but smile back?
You took my hand and led me to a place far away.
We sat on the highest cliff and looked out at the world.
But it wasn't just any world now.
No. Now it was our world. Forever and always.
You held my hand as we gazed out over our kingdom.
We made fire rain down from the heavens,
Burning the ones who hated us, resented us.
Now the world would pay for the misdeeds they did to us.
You and I, the immortal, the powerful.
None could withstand us.
For I knew in my heart that I could not bear to be alone.
I knew that once I held your perfect hand, I would never let it go.

---

This fire inside of me is burning out.
I'm losing my will to live.
I wanted you, and you left me.
You left me to die inside.
And for what?
Was it that bad to love me?
And was it even harder to admit?
Did I ever make you feel at all?
Or was it just an act?
But the past doesn't matter.
What we had will never be again.
So why do I long for it so?
Why does this existance hurt?
Why did you make me love you?
And why did you leave me?
I can't stand to be so alone.
It's burning me up inside.
And I'm losing my will to live.
Why were you afraid to love me?
Was I really that bad?
Or like everything in my life,
Did you just have to leave?
Did you have to take my last happiness?
The last piece of it inside me?
Why would you leave me to this fate?
Could you ever love me?
I will never know.
Because you're gone for good...

---

I love you.
What more could there be to say?
I know that the words mean nothing.
But there are no others to describe it.
The way I feel when I see you.
The way I feel when you smile at me.
The way I feel when you hold me.
The way I feel when you say you love me.
You make me feel like I'm the only one.
you make me feel like I'm the best in the world.
I know that I'm not, but you think I am.
And that means more to me than anything.
I understand that I've hurt you so much.
And all I can do is give you my deepest apologies.
But I know they will never be enough.
For I've done something that I will regret forever.
And I regret very few things in life.
I hurt you. I made you cry.
It feels like a wound through my heart.
To know that I've caused you so much pain.
If that is not love then what is?
I would kill anyone to be with you.
I would do anything to see you smile.
I would destroy the earth if you wished it.
I would do anything at all for you.
If that is not love then what is?
But I know that love is not the right word.
There are no words to describe it.
The way you make me feel.
Like I'm the only one.
I know I'm not, but you think I am.
And if that is not love then what is?

---

I float down this river of liquid mercury
It scalds my throat as go underneath the water
My body feels like it's on fire, but I'm so cold
I come up for the air that I think will give relief
But it is just more mercury running down my throat
My body loses all feeling
My limbs go numb and I stop my struggling
I flow down the rapids but I cannot cry out
The rocks scrape at my sides but I can't save myself
I attempt to swim to safety but it's useless
I lose consciousness and there is only darkness
I awaken on a soft river bank
The rapids are gone and I can feel again
But feeling is not so good
My sides burn, I am freezing, I feel dead already
I wonder if I'm already dead and this is heaven
But how could heaven ever be this cold?
I hear a voice, so sweet to me
And your face appears above me
I attempt to talk but my throat burns
You tell me it's okay and that I will be okay too
You pick me up and take me to your camp
A fire waits for me and I curl up next to it like a great cat
The warmth feels so good on my broken and freezing flesh
I shiver and shake and you come stay next to me
You keep me warmer than anyone ever could
For the warmth of love wells up in me
My savoir so close to me takes my breath away
I am so weak but find the strength to hold you to me
I bury my face against you and weep frozen tears
You have saved me from inevitable death
I praise you and love you and thank you for saving me
And all you do is hold me close, keep me warm, keep me safe
The wolves come for me that night but you warn them off with a growl of your own
You saved me and now you protect this broken doll
For that is what I am now
A broken doll who neither moves nor feels but simply exists
You stay next to me and keep me safe and warm and I drift off into bliss
I dream of your face above me and know I am loved
But the dream shatters and I am cold
So cold am I that I shiver involuntarily
I open my eyes and see people above me
Your face is nowhere in this crowd
Medics are above me screaming and giving me blankets
They say "Thank God you are alive, we thought we'd lost you"
And I realized that I had looked upon the face of God
I had looked upon you and known love in my heart
You saved me from death and kept me warm, kept me alive
Thank God indeed.

---

You defeated me with cruel words and bitter replies
You killed me with the words I thought you would never speak
You took my life with something I feared to hear
You told me you don't love me anymore

You said you would not waste such words on someone not worthy
So why would you waste them on me if you never meant them
Why would you tell me you will always love me when you wouldn't
Why would you tell me that you'd never leave when you did

You know what you mean to me, so how could you leave me to this
How could you throw away everything I've ever said to you
For one small annoyance you took back the only thing that ever meant something to me
You said such things to me, you called me beautiful, and now you take it back

What cruel fate has left me loving you, even though you don't feel the same
What twisted reality is it that I want you and you want none of me
Do you have any idea what those words have caused me
Did you have any idea that they would be the end of me...

---

I walk down the cold country road
Snow crunches under my feet as I walk
My breath puffs out from my mouth
And my cape billows out behind me

The moon is full and I hear them
I hear the howls and the cries not far
I pick up speed to get away from them
The dark hunters of the night

They follow me in the darkness of the trees
I run and they pace along with me
They are toying with me now
I see their yellow eyes only among the trees

I fly up into the dark night and their eyes watch
I see them change and turn into forms more familiar
The dark hunters watch me, naked and hungry, as I fly up
The werewolves of the forest have not caught me yet

They run along, pale and beauitful, creatures of the forest
I fly along with my cape billowing and my hair flying back
My black hair mixes with the black of my cape and is lost
I turn into the very darkness and know that I have escaped again

The Vampire cannot be caught by these wild creatures
But it is only a matter of time before they get me
They will come for me some night in the future
And I will be lost to the fury of the pack

Damn Those Are All Really Good Nice Job

Thanks. Most of them I write without even thinking. I just type stuff and then when I re-read it I'm like, when did that get there?

Red wine falls from my wrists to decorate the carpet
He's screaming at me from outside the door but it doesn't stop me
Sitting on my bed I carve out intricate designs on the most intricate of places
The room spins and I smile because I know this feeling
I've felt it dozens of times before and it excites me
But this time the feeling grows beyond any other time
I hear him finally break down the door but it's too late
The damage is done and this sweet red wine flows easily from me
He's screaming for me to get up from the floor but I tune him out
What is the use of getting up when you don't want to anymore?
He cradles me in his arms and for the first time I see tears in his eyes
And yet I don't regret this design on my wrist
It's just another story of another broken dream
Colors fade out and there is only black and white now
He's crying and screaming for me to wake up
But I don't wake up and I'll never wake up again
Another broken dream was my last broken dream
There comes a point when you just can't take this anymore
And through this dark design I tell my story
My story of just another broken dream
The story of my life and my past and my future
But there won't be a future
Not anymore with this red wine falling from me
My last seconds on Earth I laid cradled in his arms with him weeping
My very last thought was one that I will never forget, even in death
I thought, Maybe he really did love me
I thought, Maybe this wasn't worth it
But I can't go back now
It's the past and I spend my time wiser now
I watch him from far above
I watch this sorrow and his pain for weeks on end
And one night he gets a dark idea
The same dark idea that is carved into my dead corpse's wrist
He went into the same room where I carved my last design
He took the very blade from the table where he kept it to remember me
He carved the dark mark into his skin and I watched him leave
I knew it was my fault but I could only smile
Because I now knew that he loved me
And we could once more be together
And together, with the dark mark upon our wrists, we walk
Through the night and into the light beyond
This showed me something I never thought I would know
The dark mark isn't always a curse, but sometimes a savior as well




^^I just wrote that. Not the most ideal thing in the world but it's damn close. It shows that even in death, and especially, you can be happy.^^

Venting some anger out in this one...



You knew what you were doing to me from the start
I trusted you and you FUCKING BETRAYED ME!
You killed me inside and you don't even FUCKING CARE!
How the HELL do you think I feel when I look in the mirror
Do you really think I like what I see
Well I'll tell you a little secret
I HATE ME
I HATE what I am
And I hate you even more for MAKING ME THIS WAY!
You hate me for being this way
But you're the bitch WHO MADE ME!
You say things about me behind my back
You know that I hear them too
Well I'll tell you another little secret
I REALLY DON'T GIVE A SHIT
I've DREAMT of your death
I've played it OVER AND OVER in my head
You're head is going to ROLL
I swear to you your life will be a living HELL
Mess with me again and you WILL face the consequences
So you fucking WHORE you had better watch your back
Because my knife is going to be in it!!!!