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- 15 Feb 1993 - 6 ft. underground hopefully soon |
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Interests:
i love basketball, softball, vball, xcountry, etc. anything athletic or competetive. also writing, drawing, taking pictures, and going on facebook. playing and listening to music too.
Favorite Bands:
billy talent, sum 41, senses fail, silverstein, the used, saosin, SKSK, underoath, alkaline trio, atreyu, thursday, saves the day, bayside, armor for sleep, the almost, emery, chiodos, avenged sevenfold, slipknot, alexisonfire, alesana, etc. mk
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About Me:
well i don't really know anything about me. or myself. i don't really know anything anymore and i'm not really good at these types of things. then again i'm not really good at anything. i guess i could start by saying i live for music. it's my escape from reality whether it's for three hours or just two minutes long. i'm 15 and 5'8. i also live in rhode island. i'm kinda messed up haha. i don't like being viewed as weak so i don't show my depression to my friends or classmates or whoever so i wont be a drag to them. i'm afraid of them leaving me because the ones who said they'd be there.. left. i have the worst fear of being alone and dying alone. and i'm basically dying inside each day. i just fake happiness but it only comes off as being hyper, weird, and different. aah i hate that word. but only when it comes out of someone else's mouth because being different is a bad thing at my school. i have been beat up by ghetto people and bullied since the first grade. personally i like being different and being set apart from everyone else and not feeling the need to blend in. i dont have any room in my heart for hatred & i will never judge anyone. i'm a writer too. i'm actually writing a book and hopefully can get it published. i only write poems and stories usually depressing themes and whatnot. i cant really write happy stuff because it's just not in me. some pin points in my life that has made me to what i am today is in the 7th grade i was diagnosed with depression and anxiety and have been hospitalized many times because of cutting and suicide attempts im just gonna be honest cause i don't/can't really talk about this stuff to my friends or family. well mostly not my friends because they don't understand. i can see a lot of people can relate to me on here so if you ever want to message me to talk or need advice i can also give you some cause i've been through a whole fucking lot. i dont like the judgement. i'm almost convinced god fucking hates me and wants me 6 feet underground. you don't have to talk to me or comment me if you don't want to. i will do anything and go the extra mile to make people happy or just brighten their day even though i can't even manage to brighten my own. btw my name is heather. save me from my fucking self. |
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