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About Me:
Alright so, As you know, I'm Emily. In a nutshell, I have chronic depression, and no one in my family knows. I'm my own person, I thrive to be myself, and I actually don't want to change the way I am. Being depressed has opened my eyes, I'd rather have all of these deeper opinions on life then only scratch the surface and act like everything is fine. First off, Religion. It's been forced on me my whole life, shoved down my throat. My mom is a religion teacher and the choir director at church; the place I'm dragged to every week. It's annoying having to sit through everything seeing as I've decided, I don't believe any of it. It's a load of crap. I mean, ok, so a guy comes down suddenly, heals people, turns water into wine, ALLELUIA! And then he's killed and someone just happens to write a book about it? For all we know that book was a fairy tale made from someone’s imagination a long time ago.. then the human race today ended up being stupid enough to find the book and believe every word! It's like in the future if someone were to find a book on unicorns, suddenly, HAIL THE HORSE WITH A POINTY HORN, IT'S POWERFUL AND ALMIGHTY. Makes more sense when I say it like that I suppose. Personally I believe that the bible is simply guidelines for living, all the "be nice to your neighbor, treat other how you wish to be treated" but gah, wouldn't you know it, I'd do that anyways without having some book tell me that I have to. No one is going to sweep down and save us, it's pathetic how much faith people put into something that they know really nothing about. Alright, so, that covers religion. Don't like the way I look at things? That's your problem. So don't even think about contradicting me on any of this, I'm merely putting this out there for people to think about, leave your nasty comments for you brain to rave about. So, because of my Chronically depressed state, because some of the things I say or the way I act, a couple stupid people seem to think that I'm worthless and that they think I'm wrong in every way and don't belong in this world. Perhaps they're right, but, I wasn't going to take that kind of thing without stepping up, so here’s my little speech that I tell them when I've had enough: "You don't understand and you never will. Stop trying to tell me what's right for a person and what's wrong. I'm my own person. Stop bugging me about how I act, Stop bugging me about the way I look or dress, Stop bugging me about myself, Because I am not changing for anyone, Especially not someone as judgmental as you, So back off. Let me live. Let me die. Let me be me. You can't control everything and everyone, So stop trying. I'm sick of it, And I'm sick of you. Leave me alone. I never asked for your opinion, So don't fucking give me it. And if none of this gets through to your head, child, I think you're the one who would need help, Way more help than me. Screw off. I'm not taking any of this from you anymore. Leave me be. End of conversation." Cold? Maybe. But some people can get on my bad side to that point where I go off... try not to be one of those people. I would hate to have to go through that whole speech over and over, it irritates me to have to write it out. This is me. Like me or hate me. I honestly couldn't care less unless you're very important to me. This is how my mind is, and how it thinks. I can't control it, so honestly, if you think it's wrong to be opinionated like I am, don't even talk to me, because then apparently you think that I am entirely wrong. Like anything I've said? Did it open your eyes at all? I hope I have maybe made some impact on someone out there. If you have something to say that you just can't hold in anymore, like a little child jumping around needing the washroom horribly, go talk to me. Any questions at all. Ask them there. Alright? Alright. Bye for now. <3 Emily |
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