i just didnt feel like going. i personally blame mike cause he still could have gone but he stayed home with me. matt's not mad at me atleast. we spent the whole night after my grandparents party just talking with mike and some of my other cousins. we anyways you might get to see me before i get to go back to california. im might venture over to one of matt's football games. Oh and btw you get to wear his jersey every game cause his cousin can't make the games. lol i thought i would just let you know. anyways i got to go. i'll ttyl
he's not going to the fights tonight. he told me after therapy that he's going to spend the night with you and that he's not gonna go to the fights. if you do hang out dont be hanging around outside cause the heat really bothers him after a few hours cause he's got this nasty sunburn
he's been mixed up lately. he said he wants to kill himself now. he's been trying hard to remember you. i've been telling him stuff that he told me a long time ago about you two. anyways he said he needsw help and the only one who can help him is you. matt's tried to kill himself before and almost succeeded until i stopped him. you need to talk to him asap. cause either you fix the problem or he's gonna kill himself. im not in the position to save him this time. His fate lies in your hands. i know you'll make the right choice. save him please
sorry i havent been on in a while. i just broke both my legs and just relly got fucked up. matt has been doing great in therapy and is completely different. he's calm all the time now and never even back talks or anything now. i heard matt talking one time i therapy and heard him talking about these dreams he's been having. every night for the past 5 nights he's had dreams about you and you and him getting back together.
im leaving now to go to matt's again to talk to him. he wont be able to talk to you tonight just to let you know cause he'll be busy with me. i scheduled him so therapy meetings this week and next week. im gonna talk to him to see whats going on then i'll help him. and idk if he told you but i punched him in the jaw yesterday amd i told him not to tell you. sorry
im gonna drive over to his house tonight to talk to him. here is the deal. in 2 week, so august the 2nd you need to meet up with him in person and talk. will that work for you.
can you give him 2 weeks. meet up somewhere in 2 weeks. see how he's changed and see if you want to take him back. just give him 2 weeks. that's enough time
you know as well as i do that matt regrets everything he said. i know he didnt mean it. it's not him to do that. when he gets confused he gets angry and does stupid shit that he doesnt want to do. i know somewhere deep down inside you that you loved him. and i know he still loves you. that's how i know he didnt mean what he said. please sam. you need to talk to matt and try to work things out. i guarantee you that he will not act the way he did. you need to talk to him and give him another chance. please sam. do it for me. and most importantly do it for you and him.
