As title says.
Heres why I ask.

For a long while i've been going through periods of extreme sadness. (NOT TO BE CONFUSED WITH DEPRESSION..NOT THE SAME)
These times last anywhere from a week to a month and occasionally more.
I have been sent to a Doctor for it, and he said what I already knew, which was that I was just going through extreme sad times, but NOT DEPRESSION. He still gave me an anti-depressant and said that it would still help.

Problem is, I enjoy the sadness. Its like my heroin..
It feels incredibly bad and hurtful, but for some reason I like it..
Whenever my mom sees that the sadness returns, she tells me to take some of the pills. As soon as she leaves/doesnt remind me, I puke up the pills or just dont take them.
I dont like the feeling of always being happy. Also, I dont like being sad "because thats what emos do", especially since im not "emo" or "scene"
I always enjoy the extreme sadness periods..Its one of those things that hurts, but feels oh so good.
Also, I have no reason for even being sad. My life has been going really good, so it isnt because of a bad life.
Its like I dont like being "happy" and am happier being sad..If that made sense..

Is this even remotely normal? For someone to LOOK FOREWARD to being extremely sad..
Is this like a psychological disorder?

I'm kind of like that too. It's weird. I say, if you like being sad, be sad!

I'm kind of like that but it's tiredness instead of sadness.
I'm never not tired (except when it's late at night, then i'm wide awake).
Like my body is tired but mentally i'm completely awake (again, except for during the night)

how old are you? im just asking do to it could be as some say your at that age. not trying to say there isnt something there could be. and as long as you dont hurt your self then you like it do it. but like i said as long as YOUR NOT HURTING YOUR SELF !!!!!

how old are you? im just asking do to it could be as some say your at that age. not trying to say there isnt something there could be. and as long as you dont hurt your self then you like it do it. but like i said as long as YOUR NOT HURTING YOUR SELF !!!!!

Im 14, almost 15

No, I dont hurt myself..Not anymore atleast..
I used to cut (A long time ago, before I knew about the "emo" stereotype)
But then I realized that cutting solves nothing, and only adds more problems.

RestriCKted wrote:

how old are you? im just asking do to it could be as some say your at that age. not trying to say there isnt something there could be. and as long as you dont hurt your self then you like it do it. but like i said as long as YOUR NOT HURTING YOUR SELF !!!!!

Im 14, almost 15

No, I dont hurt myself..Not anymore atleast..
I used to cut (A long time ago, before I knew about the "emo" stereotype)
But then I realized that cutting solves nothing, and only adds more problems.

True.

Well id just give it time.

RestriCKted wrote: Its one of those things that hurts, but feels oh so good.

kinky

I'm like that too.
Like when I'm happy and perky then I just pretty much collapse and come to my senses and then I'm like "I don't like being "happy",I am happy being sad".It's weird but it's like that for me too.I'm happy being sad.So I guess it's kind of normal..I'm not a doctor though.

Don't let your emotions get to you restickted.

Fight the power of love!!!

Alright retrickted. You might have what I have. It's basically bipolar syndrome on a large scale. I have the same problems with emotions you do. I learned to say "fuck these emotions"

tats kinda wat hapens 2 me its lyk i finaly stop cutin but then i cant cause its just so addicting nd i feel lyk a peice of worthless shit wen i dnt....idk

Learn to type. Seriously. Proper grammar isn't hard.

i get wat ur saying... ur saying ur sadness is ur happiness, and ur happiness is ur sadness...

i truthfully dont think this is weird, because maybe (this is wat my reason for not wanting to b happy all the time is) well when ur happy u feel like everything is perfect, but u kno its not, and u kno that nothings right, and u just feel out of place... when ur sad (or just a little down) (to me) its easier just to b everywhere, cause u kno that nothing is perfect, and u feel that nothing is perfect, and that makes u feel well better, and also when ur sad, not everyone knows, and u can controll how people see u better

to me, i feel better when im sadder b/c when im happy i kno that everything is going to get worse, so i have nothing to look forward to... when im sad i feel like everything is worse, so i have more stuff to look forward to.

i wouldnt say u need to go to a doctor, but if it worries u alot, then i would, but otherwise i see no problem, unless ur having suicial thoughts, then i'd go and see i psyciatrist