Fuck i hate everything right now,
my cousin,who im fairly close with is on the verge of dieing, he drank to the point where he was internally bleeding,the same day that i found out about this i found out that a close friend of mine who i used to work out is heavy duty into painkillers and really fucked up because of his ocd,he locked himself inside his house and might have to get tazered out by the cops. When i was working out with him his ocd was under control because he had something to distract him from it.Since i stopped working out with him his life has been going downhill. I kinda feel like it's my fault.
My Girlfriend is also no support, she just doesnt understand, she just gets mad at me when i talk to her about it.