I'm on the brink of depression

As much as I hate to say it, i think I'm on the brink of depression. I haven't been truly happy or enthusiastic about anything in the past 4 years. The people I'm surrounded by sicken me, they are all hypocrites, they are backstabbers, liars, and users. I tried to maintain myself and be true to me, but they just give me shit for being me. Because of what i wear, how i act, the music i listen to, the fact that I can be a sensitive guy? People gave me advice and told me to fight, but now it just seems like I'm fighting a loosing battle. People told me i would receive my just desserts, when I'm right here waiting and no fucking sign has shown itself. People say that if i just ignore them it will all go away, that is total and utter bullshit. I try my hardest and yet all these assholes top me, rub it in my face, call me names, I'm ridiculed, and I'm considered a joke. I've ignored them, but it doesn't fucking amount to anything when this shit happens everyday. I don't have any methods of letting all this out except this, I can't pursue my life's passions because people see it as stupid, I can't practice my music anymore, I don't have time to write anymore, im beginning to show signs of paranoia, my life is becoming fucked up as it progresses. I don't know what to do, i don't know how to deal with this shit. Seems like senior year has just totally stripped me of everything.

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Visit a psychologist or counselor.
Srsly.

Go see a psychologist or someone along the lines of that.

Have sex

i have freinds like that. i just ignore them. i don't like hanging out with them. i'd rather be alone than have someone insult me.

see a therapist