your stupid...i hate you

ahaha this is lame......lame lame lame..!!..ahahaha fuck!alam ko pinoy ka....

i have a friend and she was intobelieving in the devil and stuff in fourth grade, so obviously we didnt know anything about it and it was like that all into 5th grade with me and her. When we went to the new school for fifth grade i met another guy who believed in the devi and he had a friend like that. Then in sixth grade I got caught up in emo ( who knows how). i wanted to be sad all the time( I literally MADE myself sad) i wore black all the time. I know i was faking it. My dad would make fun of me and sayy shit like once u go black u can never go back, honestly it was true... i was forcing myself in a hole of depression. I started cutting myself, my "best friend" told the school therapist and she called my mom and mom said she would take me to a therapist for depression but she didn't and now i think ill be like this for a long long time.. I've gotten used to it. Most of the time I'm "happy" but when night comes i really want to be emo and wear black and have outrageous awesome makeup and this is the time of the dayy&& when mom says something about how im not happy and i need more friends i just get depressed again,...
Oh

heres my story okay, i stated listening to the kind of music and my mom was looking at me like wat the hell why is she litening to this kind of music lolz and sooner or later i just stated dressing like an emo but i didnt know i was emo my sister thinks im wierd and my parents should send me away lolz but all my friends were like "ur an emo girl" so i said i guss i am emo then im just a proud emo

Um... wow i guess im not really one to tell this to the world, but whatever. I turned Emo at 12 because My parents Do Freaking drugs, They always scream and i dont even know my real dad. My moms a Damned Alcoholic. and to make it worse ive ALWAYS been an outcast, even when i was stupidly trying to fit in. hah. what a feaking joke that was. Now its worse, because im emo, and people think that, i dunno, makin fun of me will make me stop.and even thought im 13, i have alot of moments when i think deeply about after death. and im not trying to offend any religeons or anything, but i guess i dont belive in a religeon. i just wish there was something other than darkness. and i guess preps try to make things bright, but all they do is cast a shadow on us. and my 2 (now chance in hell anymore) best friends hate me because they think im a poser. well, that shows all they know. and hate me f you want, but it really doesnt help anything :[

WELL KNOW SON...one thing leads to another...skateboarding to music to punk clothes to hair to EMO.MMMWWAAHH

Can I lock this, I thought this would be locked by now ?

well.....um........firstly i'm not really emo
my bf n i believe we are the coolest tryhards on the block XD
but i started dressing emo...um....about two years ago.
coz...well i felt like it!
and my friend always dressed emo and i thought she looked awesome.
im a copy cat XD
i tried goth but thats so not for me.
fitting in isn't my thing. lol. i just can't do it.
soooooooooo here i am
the coolest tryhard on my block XD
if you hate me, don't try to get through to me or say rude s h i t.
i
will
ignore
you.

I have no story.
The boys are cute.

=D
baha.

im not gonna post my story i would but its long and i cant be bothered

meh... where to begin?

well, i've alwais been different... and wen i got up to secondary skwl.... i met people... fell 'in love' and he broke my heart, alot of tymes, i got into drugs, drinkin, lost weight, and self harmed... dressed lyke an emo, acted lyke an emo, ran away from home.... and it started form there >_>

im back at home now tho, and not so emo, infact im pretty happy with lyfe now... but, im still kinda emo... that aint eva gonna change xD

Its a long story but i just become emo during my 7th grade yr., but it all started when i was little... i never met my dad. and mom always had a new boyfriend, i never liked them cause i always have a weird feeling that there all going to hurt her... which sofar in my life that is true. she got married when i was like 3 to a guy, i never liked him either. he tried to be nice to me and everything but i never liked him... then after they were married like 7 yrs he ended up on drugs and they got divorced... i hated seeing my mom how she was but i never showed that i felt any pain, i would act likie nothing happened at school.. fake it and act like i was a preppy bitch. she had a few boyfriend inbetween her divorce and a yr ago.. they all did somehting to her and she always seemed to fall flat on her face. and i couldnt stand it... but i covered it all up with my bad attempt to act like i was someone i wasnt. then she got married again last yr and it was all good until he went to work in arizona in october. and ended up cheating on her. i now hate him and seriously want to kill him. and after that i finally could hold all it in and i broke down... and changed, i started dressing different... all my 'friends' dont rrl talk to me anymore cause they dont hang out with 'people like me' so i started hanging out with the other emo/scene people.. and i seemed to fit in for being me.. and not someone im not.

i've always been kinda emo, i mean when i was little i would love to think about the 'afterlife' or life after death, and ive always had problems cuz my parents are always fighting, my mom treats me like im a doll, and she can control me, and my dad sometimes gets on my nerves cuz i know hes cheated on my mom.. -.- my family members die like every year, and there is always some stupid drama that breaks up my family. the years up to 7th grade, i had to be a poser acting g -_- and i fcking hate myself for doing it, but i live in a pretty harsh neighborhood, so i had to act that way so i wouldnt be like shot. in 7th grade i was in a school that was only preps, and ghettos and posers. i was pretty popular becuz i was a fake, then 8th grade i decided to stop being such a fake, and i decided to slowly show that i do like mcr, and that i am this way, and its always been a part of me, and it always will be a part of me. i do cut, and if people dont like me for who i am now, i dont give a fuck -.-"

my friend introduced me to some rock, i digged it, was bored so i cut, and now i cut cut and cut yes yesssss blood

bellaxmuertexxx wrote: i've always been kinda emo, i mean when i was little i would love to think about the 'afterlife' or life after death, and ive always had problems cuz my parents are always fighting, my mom treats me like im a doll, and she can control me, and my dad sometimes gets on my nerves cuz i know hes cheated on my mom.. -.- my family members die like every year, and there is always some stupid drama that breaks up my family. the years up to 7th grade, i had to be a poser acting g -_- and i fcking hate myself for doing it, but i live in a pretty harsh neighborhood, so i had to act that way so i wouldnt be like shot. in 7th grade i was in a school that was only preps, and ghettos and posers. i was pretty popular becuz i was a fake, then 8th grade i decided to stop being such a fake, and i decided to slowly show that i do like mcr, and that i am this way, and its always been a part of me, and it always will be a part of me. i do cut, and if people dont like me for who i am now, i dont give a fuck -.-"

our storys r kinda similar... i started changing, or showing, tht i wasnt the person i acted off to b in 7th grade. most of my old friends dont like me but atleast i have new friends who will stick up 4 me =]]]