Cutting

I have been thinking about the marks on my wrist...the slashes of torn skin that bled for almost an hour, and stung all day... Why did I do it? I kept asking myself the same question as I sat in the car next to my energetic mom.
Here is what I came up with:
Being depressed from a past incident, and having that history follow you creates a lot of grief. I found myself overwhelmed with that past, school, etc...and couldn't bear it. To me....cutting is letting myself know that I am still alive. The pain of the broken razor on my thigh or wrist indicates...that I can feel something, because right now I feel empty. Hollow. Lonely.

Now, my question for you is: Why do you cut? (That is, if you do.)

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If you feel you need to get this out, write it down in a diary and give the diary to someone you trust, someone you think will help you.
I sincerly agree with Kittens

Last time I trusted someone with this, I ended up being sold out. Everyone thinks I stopped...So why should I get sold out again? o.O

Zephirine wrote: The therapist that would just sit there and make me talk about my hates.

its a start
been there
took a while for it to 'help'

Zephirine wrote: I have come to not trust doctors, or anyone medical.

you're a bigger fool than I

Zephirine wrote: Last time I trusted someone with this, I ended up being sold out. Everyone thinks I stopped...So why should I get sold out again? o.O

Do you know what, getting 'sold out' is the best thing that can happen to you. You dont go through the trauma of telling them you do it, cause they've already been told (the adult/parent)
Why should you get sold out again? cause you're stupid enough to start it up again.
wanna discuss this more? PM me
I'm all eyes.

You sound like a child
An immature one at that

Heh, we're all immature children at one point or another. And the reason I hate medical staff: My father who worked with them would tell them that I was mentally disabled, or that I was unstable and didn't know what I was saying when I would tell them that he abused me. So yeah. Perfectly good reason to dislike them. And also, he threatened to send me to a hospital when I was 11. And keep me there. I have a fear of being alone...haha

So instead of just blaing your father you blame every doctor, psychiatrist, therapist and psychologist in the world?
Good choice

I'm just scared of them!

Why? They're just normal bloody people
Except every now and then they, you know, save some lives

yea
i used to cut
i didnt evan know much about emo when i did
i was sad because my parents would fight,my brother did drugs,i was in boot camp & my mates where peer presuring meh
but i though i was cutting my way to happyness
i was really cutting myself deeper & deeper
into the habit of cutting
iv stopped but the scars are always there
it just reminds me of the stupid mistakes i made
id never go back
i was immature,selfish & ...ok luv struck but w.e
it made me fit in with my crush -lawl yep a crush-
but i feel more alive now that the stage of it is overs

EmptyStar wrote:
i didnt evan know much about emo when i did

...face...desk...

Im not the ideal poster girl, but you really should see a professional...
It isnt something cool, or 'emo', its serious...
Fears of one doctor should not condemm the rest...they dont bite, I swear..

Anyone else think that the majority of the cutting topics that EB has got lately are just attention-seekers and don't actually do it? ;D

I would say something else, but it would cause people to go into an all-out offensive onto me, and that would make me sadface, so I shall keep quiet.

If you actually do, see somebody about it, point of dying when you have a long future ahead of you? All those years to change into something, to get happy? Going to put those years to waste? Naw.

And to answer your question, no, I do not cut.