The experience with the girl expressed in the following has left me completely and utterly shaken, I can't even really say I'm the same person I was before I met her. I don't like what I've become, and I felt this was something I needed to share, or, maybe, more something I needed to get out or let go of. So here is my first attempt toward moving on...

Initially, when I began writing this, my intents were for it to be a song, but as I wrote it became more of a poem with no particular form or style...I even had trouble communicating my original message, so I don't really feel to proud of my work, but comments are always welcome. I take criticism well.

You were what I thought I wanted
You were all I'd ever dreamt of
You were what I thought my heart desired
You're the holder of such a fucked up fake love
And I fell for your games

It was just another one of my party nights
I admit I was pretty high, I tried a new pill...
Well, I got a call from you, voice filled with sorrow and fright
Asked you what was wrong, wanted to help you calm
You told me a friend asked you for a favor...you were leaving town
It sounded like you broke to tears(you're a good actor, dear)
I knew you didn't like being away from home, my face steadily grew a frown
I stayed on the phone until your ride arrived
Seemed I'd settled you a litte
Told you if you felt uncomfortable, just give me a call or even a text
But if I'd had known, for just one moment, you were leaving to sleep with your ex
I would have...

Hung up, stood up!
Thrown my phone across the lawn, and I'd've been the one who broke to tears
I thought we were devoted
He's such an ass, you said you were over him
I thought I was your man, oh how it hurts to be demoted

I'm not one to seek revenge, but I had it out for you
But karma beat me to the punch
Heard he ended up in rehab, he'll be gone for many months
What a shame
I was told of how upset it made you
You used my friends to get you drunk
It had been a few months since you and I spoke
Heard you asked how I was doing
They said it seemed you really cared
Sadly I had grown attached, on you my heart was stuck
Despite what pain you dealt me
You called me, I thought it was serious, but all you wanted was to fuck!

You hurt me once again
I used to be nice
But these wounds are changing me
Now I'm full of hate
And I've lost so many friends
Best friend I have now are the pills I tried that night
I'm such a wreck
Nothing left of my worn out body to measure the importance of my exsistence
Not even a speck
And it's all because of you

That's so sad....

wow....I give u props...its been a while since i've read something like this...Good work man

Thanks

that was actually really good